Wednesday, March 22, 2017

A Life Well Lived

First of all I want to thank all of you for your prayers and loving thoughts.  I will say that I can really feel the power of the positive thoughts and prayers because otherwise I don't think I would have been able to cope as well as I have been.  There were many times where I felt like my heart was going to explode from the pain and anguish.  At that moment it truly felt like someone enclosed me in their arms and held me until the sorrow passed. 

Saturday March 18, 2017 I had a Celebration of Life open house here at the farm.  Many friends stopped by to say goodbye, and share some lovely funny stories.  My brother flew in on the red eye that morning from Oregon.

My parents had arrived the day after the accident, I wish they all could have been her under better circumstances.

I will admit I was afraid that no one would show up since Jeff's family is having a large memorial in town.  I was thankful when Kris from Kris Loves Fabric arrived, and  I was pleasantly surprised at all of the people who came.  I know we had well over 50 people come.

Jeff wasn't one to take pictures often.  I managed to scrounge up enough pictures to make a memory board.  I titled it A Life Well Lived.  On the board were pictures which I got from the AA when he was little, a few pictures of the daughters, and a picture of him with  the grand kids.

You can see I had the table set with some of his small John Deere tractors.

My ex husband and his wife sent me this gorgeous basket. 
My parents bought this lovely arrangement it is full of yellow flowers.  Jeff being a John Deere kind of guy always wanted green and yellow.

This is the basket of flowers that I ordered.  I thought it was perfect with the yellow roses and greenery, and green gingham bow. 

I also received an arrangement from Kate and Dustin my oldest daughter, and Kate's mother in law sent a lovely plant also.

I had the flowers on a table with a basket for cards, a guest book, memorial folders, and more tractors, and the wedding cake topper Jeff had chosen when we got married. 

The prayer inside his memorial folder:

Native American Prayer

I give you this one thought to keep-
I am with you still- I do not sleep, 
I am a thousand winds that blow, 
I am the diamond glints on snow,
I am the sunlight on ripened grain,
I am the gentle Autumn rain.
When you awaken in the morning's hush,
I am the swift uplifting rush
Of quiet birds in circled flight, 
I am the soft stars that shine at night.

I will say that I think that Jeff was a great example of a Life Well Lived and all of his friends and the family that showed to share, were proof. 

Friday, March 10, 2017

Saying Goodbye

Wednesday the love of my life, my best friend, my better half was tragically taken from me in a car accident, right down the street at the corner.  As I wheeled my garbage can out to the street today, I could see the light, and as the sun rises it reminds me of him and the moment that he was lost to me. 

The morning he died, he kissed me passionately but tenderly.  I told him goodbye, have a good day at work and I love you.  He told me he loved me, and he couldn't wait to get back home.  He went out fed the chickens and jumped into our junker Chevrolet Cavalier, and left.  Just a few minutes later all the sirens, started going off, I looked up and thought I hope Jeff made it past the accident.  My daughter called about 15 minutes later, where is Dad?  I told her he left for work.  Her boyfriend thought that the accident at the corner was Jeff.  I said no he should have been well past that before it happened.  She kept calling him and calling, no answer. I told her he won't pick up while he is driving, he was careful like that.  I texted him.  I knew he would answer me by 7:30am.  At 7:35 no answer, I jumped into the car and drove down the light.  What I saw took my breath away.  I collapsed on the ground crying, asking where they had taken him.  When the State Patrolman told me he had died instantly, a part of me died.

Slow down, you are never in that much of a hurry.  The man that hit my husband blew through the stoplight at the intersection, they think he may have been going well over the speed limit when it happened.  Many cars were stopped at that time, there is video of it happening at the local business, so many people called the state police to report the accident and act as witnesses the officer told me he was having trouble handling all of the calls.  Put the cell phone down, pay attention to what is going on around you.  I have to go through that intersection almost every time I leave the house.  To drive through it and not see any skid marks makes my heart lurch. 

While the true meaning of this song is totally different I am holding it in my heart.

I'm already there
Don't make a sound
I'm the beat in your heart
I'm the moonlight shining down
I'm the whisper in the wind
And I'll be there until the end
Can you feel the love that we share
Oh I'm already there

We may be a thousand miles apart
But I'll be with you wherever you are

I'm already there
Take a look around
I'm the sunshine in your hair
I'm the shadow on the ground
I'm the whisper in the wind
And I'll be there until the end
Can you feel the love that we share
Oh I'm already there
Oh I'm already

Right now it gives me comfort during this time.  It reminds me he is all around me, even though he is not physically with me anymore.

Saturday, March 4, 2017

Playing on the Farm

Back at the end of January Amy of A Quilting Sheep posted the cutest block.  It was a friendship block with a heart.  Now I love the friendship block and I love hearts so of course I had to save the tutorial that she provided.  I thought it would be so cute in my Farm Girl Vintage quilt, but I didn't want the large block.  Amy kindly gave me permission to try to downsize it to 6 1/2 inches.

Yep it has a wrinkle and it has some teeny tiny squares to make HST but not too bad for a first try.  Thanks again Amy for a super cute block. 

Then Barbara of wont-to-be quilter, shared a block on Facebook and I knew I wanted to try to make the block. I made a cute apple block.  I think my stem is too large and I have some 3/4 inch strips and  1inch squares to make HST,  but I got it to 6 1/2 inches square.

I also think my leaf is kind of cute.  I did somehow end up with a strip which was a scotch too small.

The blocks for the Farm Girl Vintage SALin March are the barn, and the pear.  I think before I go any further I may need to work out how many blocks am I making, and create kind of a layout since I have 6 1/2 inch blocks as well as 12 1/2 inch blocks.

Last month was my birthday.  If you shop online some shops send you specials for your birthday.  I had a 20% off discount.  So I just had to use it, not using a 20% off coupon is like flushing money down the drain right?

I bought some Kimberbell basics by Maywood and some more aqua/teal fabrics.  Can you tell I am still obsessing about my fabric for the February RSC, even though it is a new month and the color is red!  I should be able to do that one.  I have lots of red. 

Friday, March 3, 2017

Ocean Wave QAL 3

Not a whole lot new going on with this one.  I am still sewing, cutting, trimming.  I haven't even made a whole block yet!  Just parts.

I did have to break down and get a larger bin to lay out my parts so the cat would quilt knocking the pile off onto the floor.

I had this bright idea I would get 5 blocks ready.  I sewed all the rows together.  Then went to press them and got distracted and ended up getting them out of order.  Lets just say I could not get them back together the right way, without having duplicates.

After a couple of hours of trying I gave it up and decided I would just make more rows.  I ended up making 9 of the units total, so I had enough pieces to make 3 whole blocks all together.
No  I haven't sewn my blocks together.  I think this will be a WIP and I will make all of the sub units so I can move them around before I decide on the final layout.  Just a few more blocks and I will be ready to put it together (132). 

Linking up to Mama Spark's World.

Thursday, March 2, 2017

Bag Lady 2017

I missed my guild meeting in February because I had pneumonia.  I was kind of bummed because the meeting was the one where you had to sign up for the bag lady group.  (Bag lady is you choose a block and at least 4 yards of fabric.  Each month you get a new bag with someone else's fabric and you make your block which you chose from their fabrics.)  I wanted to make a red, white and blue quilt this time, and had been looking for a pattern and fabric.

Imagine my excitement when the lady running the group called me a few days ago and asked if I still wanted to participate?  Well heck yeah I did.  But I didn't have a pattern or fabric, she said that was alright we weren't going to start until March anyway.  I jumped online and finally decided on this group of fabrics and ordered them.

Today I decided I better choose a pattern and get my beginning block made.

It is just a simple Ohio Star block made with 4 fabrics and I will say that I think this block went together so easy it was amazing.  This is only a 9 1/2 inch block 9 inch finished.

You can read more about my bag lady quilts here these are the blocks for 2016.  No I haven't finished my quilt yet.  Then there is the completed one from my blocks in 2015 which you can see here.  I enjoy the bag lady quilts and it is so fun to have something that may be outside of my normal comfort zone.