Friday, November 24, 2017

November Thankful Day 25

I am sorry to admit I have had a couple of bad days.  Missing Jeff, dealing with Jeff's family and being continually drug into court, a new set of paperwork, and the holiday was just a wee bit too much.

25.  November 25-  I am thankful for my phone.  Remember back when you paid long distance?  While the cost of the phone is a bit steep it is nice that I can pretty much call and talk to my mom, or friends whenever I want, and for however long I want. I will say it has helped me tremendously especially when I have moments of anger, despair or frustration.

Since I am still dealing with Jeff's estate his phone is still turned on.  Even though it was totally destroyed, I still call his voicemail, nope not his voice just the standard voicemail message, but I leave a message that I am angry with him for leaving me, or how ugly people can be, how much I struggle to get anything accomplish.  But most of all that I love him, and miss him so incredibly much.

These are his personal effects the Michigan State Police handed me the day he died.  His wallet, his wedding ring which I wear around my neck on a chain, and his phone.  His phone was in his left jacket pocket where the impact was.  You can't tell, but the phone was actually almost bent into a 120 degree angle. 

24. November 24 Quilt designers that share QAL, SAL, and mystery quilts.  Intrepid Thread has a SAL going on, kind of a neat quilt, table runner, bed runner so many options.  It is called The Cottage Christmas Quilt Along.   If you have ever wanted to make a Christmas quilt and haven't, in my honest opinion this one is pretty snazzy looking. 

23.  November 23-  I am thankful for Jeff 

He was always doing something fun, and silly.  Even riding the penny ride horse at the store.  You can define a good relationship if you can look back with more smiles than tears. 

22.  November 22-  I am thankful for chickens

21.  November 21-  I am thankful for Family
Many of the stockings I cross stitched the cuffs for specific people. These hang at my parents home. 

20.  November 20-  I am thankful for my Heritage

19.  November 19-  I am thankful for flowers
This is flowering almond.  My great grandmother always had it in her yard.

18.  November 18-  I am thankful for blogging and the friends I have made.

Pugmom Quilts recently sent me this fabulous chicken fabric.

And Kris from Kris Loves Fabric sent me a box full of goodies for the 12 days of Christmas.  I am holding out.  Pictures coming soon. 

17.  November 17-  I am thankful for quilting
I made this for a Christmas swap a few years ago.

16.  November 16-  I am thankful for Calder's Dairy and Egg nog

15.  November 15-  I am thankful for my options to worship

14.  November 14-  I am thankful for my Kindle and all the books that I have the opportunity to read, and the local library.  I can listen to my Kindle while sewing.  I have read over 140 books so far this year. 

I am currently reading this book by RP Dahlke. 

13.  November 13.  I am thankful for Lucy the cat.

12.  November 12--I am thankful for Bobbin

I know everyone would love a picture of Bobbin.  Lets just say getting a picture of Bobbin they are just a blur.  She runs everywhere. 

11.  November 11  I am thankful for my tenacious character to get things done.

Samantha wanted to deep fry a turkey.  --A little reminiscing--Now I know most things I say about Jeff are loving and kind, but there was one thing he did that to this day, almost 9 months after his death,  drives me nuts, and makes my life so much tougher.  He never put anything away--all the parts in one place.   I thought I knew where the parts for the turkey fryer were.  Um nope.  Main pot in the basement by the tool bench near the sump.  The "grappling hook" part was on top of my refrigerator, the thermometer was in the laundry room.  The heat source, and hose were in the garage.  There is a hanger looking thing it was in the box in another part of the garage.....yep no lid.  Samantha and I looked in every cabinet in the kitchen, tore the pantry apart, every closet on the main floor, the garage, the barn, the basement, the laundry room cupboard, shelves, cabinet, behind the washer and dryer......nothing.  I had an epiphany around 10:30 on Wednesday, and went to the fruit cellar.  I started moving the canning equipment, and behind the canners--tada the lid.  I would like to point out that the parts which there are relatively few(7) were in 4 different rooms in my house and 2 different places in the garage.  I spent 6 hours of  my life looking or thinking about where those parts would be. 

10.  November 10--I am thankful for fall.

9.  November 9 I am thankful for saved items.  Maybe I should call them hoarded items.

8.  November 8--I am thankful for music.

7.  November 7-- I am thankful for the Boy Scout organization.

6.  November 6--I am thankful that I can shop online.

5.  November 5--I am thankful that I could get new doors in my home to add more light.

4.  November 4.   I am thankful for coffee.

3.  November 3.  I am thankful for the roof over my head.  I love falling asleep to the rain on the standing seam steel roof which is over 150 years old.

2.  November 2.    I am thankful for the fact my feet hit the floor every morning, whether I want to get out of bed or not.

1.  November 1.  I am thankful for every morning I wake up--too many people don't get to see the light of another day.  Thinks about it how would you act if you knew that today was your last day on Earth?  Today is a gift.  Tomorrow is not promised. 


  1. My wish for you is to be able to move out of that angry phase--it is tough for sure...hard to deal with.
    I hate it when parts aren't together with the item; that happens all too often here...that and misplacing my scissors...erg!! hugs, Julierose

  2. I am sorry for your rough patch, so understandable but so hard, glad you are hanging onto the salve, remembering the LOVE. No need for pics of your treats my friend, just enjoy the fun :) I am living the "not in the same place thing" this morning, want to use my light panel to trace a pattern but can I find the cord? Noooo, cuz I had to hide it from the cat who chewed cords...seems I hid it from me too?!

  3. How did Sandy get to YOUR town. He always lived at the G.L. Perry Variety Store. How strange that a horse could travel so far away all on it's own!

    I just can't find any comforting words for you about Jeff today. What could I possibly say. I know the devastation that I would feel in your situation. It's really easy to find something to be grateful for every single day and I am glad you are focusing on that.
    Much Love,

  4. The holidays will be the hardest. Hopefully the legal stuff will be over soon. Then, maybe his family won't bother you anymore. Glad you have family near, to be with you. My phone was great, since I can use it to Skype with my son and daughter in law, in Alaska. Her mother and I both got to show the things that we've gotten for the baby (due in Feb) with that call. I'm also glad that we get along with her parents, too. My inlaws are wonderful, but, I've had friends with really bad inlaws. I call my MIL and tell her 'Thank you', and she always asks me if I just heard another 'bad inlaw' story. Keep calling people (and Jeff's phone) when you need to vent. I'm also available, if you need me.

  5. Big hugs from Texas. Will be keeping you in my prayers.

  6. Hugs and more hugs from Canada. Wish I was closer, I have a knack of telling people where to go.

  7. It's ok to have the rough patches but you are also such a positive person and I can see you working through them. Sending you long distant hugs :-) xx

  8. You continue to amaze me with your thankful posts. You are certainly allowed to have a rough day, or two, or many...just know that maybe tomorrow will be better! Take care...

  9. I can't imagine what you are dealing with everyday and yet you still come up with such a great list of things to be thankful for. That phone is so badly damaged. I can't imagine that sort of impact. It is good to vent through his answering device.

  10. I can imagine all those things all over the place would drive you nuts! But you did make me laugh with your story about the turkey fryer. I have no idea what made you think it was with the canning stuff! I think ringing that phone and leaving a message is a great way to deal with grief - angry, sad or sending love - I bet it feels helpful. It would to me.


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